Solitary's Suicide

There will be a time in your life when you think that you have found your peace. You know, that certain time of your life when you think you have everything under control? When everything seems to go your way and it feels like you are unstoppable? Maybe you are in one right now. Or a few weeks back you were in your solitary high.

A MOTHER'S LOVE IS ONE THAT'S PURE AND UNTAINTED

You think you've outgrown drama. Or you think, mid-life crisis a stage in the past you have stumbled through and miraculously survived. You think nothing can shatter your spirit apart, and that your faith in God (or the universe) will be enough to make you stand.

When you are on a state of solitary high, you can stand on your own. You have the flair to be an influence, to move, to breathe, to be free, and to be everything you can be. It is the very definition of independence, and much more!

But then there would come a time when you would strip yourself of all defenses. You would leave yourself naked for someone's scrutiny.  People would start to batter and break you apart piece by piece. People whom you allow to get too close will be the ones who will hold the power to destroy you.

So, to what extent do you need to trust? How do you shield yourself from the people who has sought you out to deliberately hurt you?

More importantly, how do you swing back to life when they have broken it? How will  you find the heart to trust fully again?

I don’t have answers to any of these questions. I just have more questions. I haven’t really figured it out yet. I am still appalled with the truth that somebody is always out to get you and break you.

I do not wish to be the person who runs away from risks. For life is all about taking the right risks. Moreover, I wish to be able to trust fully and not doubt the veracity of people’s intentions. I want to be given the same confidence as I give others. But can I be blamed when people have successfully broken my spirit?

The truth is, every time you trust, you give a part of yourself to others. When you share your life, you soul, and your spirit to other souls, you have given them love. They become part of your heart. And it is no surprise that loving is your solitary’s suicide.

Think about it.

Peace. Love. Fullness of Life.
Stringedmusic™


Author's Note: Inspired by Sara Barreilles' song "One Sweet Love".

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